- My Mood: ANGRY!
- Today's Thought: If you want to go...GO... but if you want me to beg you to stay, you can bloody wait..this is not my style!
- Today's Music:
D is such a selfish bastard.
Ok I am admitting that it is not the greatest love between us....well ... not from me anyway. But we get along and life is ok.
We have to be lucid and realise that life when you have two young children is hard and sometimes you tend to bypass your relationship with your husband or partner.... And to all the people who say 'Well no, you have to fight for it and you have to make sure you and your partner are close and blahdeeblah'... well I say to them, when you work all day, pick up your kids from school, go home and look after them, feed them, put up with their arguments and screaming, then cook for you and husband, and then put the kids in bed....which can be harder than some think, well after all that, you want to only sit your arse down on the sofa and watch meaningless television. And if your husband wants a cuddle or a shag, you just tell him to fuck off cause basically, the energy from your body has ran out and you just want SOME SPACE!!!!!
So D is not happy. He wants cuddles and he wants closeness. As well as that he wants to give me shit everytime I go out with my friends and he wants to ask me the same questions on and on and on.... We have the same bloody argument all the time and I am so tired of it. Why can't he just accept his life the way it is... I have!!! He said: "I want more, I need more". He want to have his cake and eat it! He's living in a little cloud called Utopia. Life is not always what you are aiming for. Sometimes you have to be patient to get what you want. But he wants is all right here and right now. It's all about Him, Him, Him as far as he is concerned. He wants to find what he craves somewhere else!
Well be my guest YOU BLOODY IDIOT! And if you find what you are looking for, hold tight cause it wont last (it didn't for us). It never does. I am not unique... our couple is not unique. All my friends are the same, I read books about women with the same life as me, I read blogs about couple life being the same as mine. Life is not perfect. My life is not perfect but it is certainly not bad and I am content with it.
He's not so he said he wanted to separate. Well fine... but if he leaves, there is no bloody turning back. And he will have to tell the kids why we have to sell our big house and why they can't see Daddy every day. Tell them: well Daddy was a selfish moron...he wanted more...no matter what!
He's such a spineless piece of shit!
Mey
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15 Spoke out!.