This is absolutely unacceptable. I have been working today and have been freezing my nuts off cause the heating was not working properly. What is this about? This should not happen anymore in this day and age!!! I know I am working for the NHS and I know money is tight…but there is no need to force people in working in these conditions!!!
It’s not enough that we have to work with ugly people (I’m talking all the IT Nerds  that come in the office in an attempt to fix a computer but since they are stupid as their feet they never can!!) we have now got to work in temperature below 10 degrees Celsius! What a Fucking liberty!!!!
I'm gonna quit soon... I've had enough of these conditions...

Anyway… I am celebrating today…not at work OBVIOUSLY .
I have booked a train fare to go to Paris in March to go and see my good old friend LH whom I have not seen since 1994!!! We were at school together and she came to visit me when I was working as a receptionist in a hotel on Brighton Sea front ages ago. We have spoken on the phone every so often but I wouldn’t say once a year… cause I have not heard her voice for years!!! We do email each other every so often and every year we send each other a text to wish each other a happy new year! It’s not the greatest friendship of all time but I have always loved her and considered her as being a very special friend. And to be honest, being apart like this for so long and still keep in touch I'd say it is quite something… worth saving in my books… worth spending 70 quid on Eurostar for a 3 day weekend!

But before March, I am off to New York on 25th for 5 days. And that…I am looking forward to cause I have been wanting to go there for ages and D was clever enough to offer me the trip which is very very special!! I want to go to Central Park and see John Lennon’s memorial site. I also want to go to Rockefeller Centre and go at the very top which I was told was better than the Empire State building. I want to Ice skate on the outdoor ice rink they have near the building. I want to go to Ground Zero too… no morbid reason behind this. I just want to pay my respect… .without sounding too sickly Americanised religious type! But most of all… I want to EAT… I want to taste their pizza which I heard are out of this world…I want to eat breakfast in a café. I want to go to a sushi restaurant and see if they are as good as Moshi Moshi in Brighton! I want to read the New York Times and have a coffee watching the snow fall…

Hmmm…ok.. I am wishing for a lot but surely anything can happen in America…right… ??!! Isn’t this what they call the American Dream!! 

Mey
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A typical Monday Morning

I open my eyes and prayed it was only 6am so I could sleep for another 45 minutes. But when I looked at the clock it was 6.45am and I knew I had to get up. I can’t believe I still felt so tired. I jumped in the shower to wake myself up a little. Walked past Jack’s room and he was already playing with his playstation!

D got up to go in bathroom. I looked in my bed and Tom was still snoring. I put the light on and he hid under the duvet….obviously he doesn’t wanna get up!

I got dressed and then kissed Tom until he woke up.

Made kids breakfast. Went back upstairs and dried my hair with my GHD. D came up to say goodbye. I prepared the kids clothe and told them to get dressed.

Went back downstairs and made myself an English Muffin with butter and honey and drank an orange juice. Shouted at the kids for making so much noise upstairs and told them to get dressed again. Made pack lunch for Tom, peeled a pear for Jack’ snack and prepared their school bags. Stomped upstairs to stop the kids from making so much noise and realising they were not dressed, shouted and said I would ring Santa to tell him not to bother coming this year. They jumped and got dressed and I reminded them to not forget to put their socks on as well!
Went to my bedroom to put my make up on, prepared toothbrush of the kids and called them out to brush their teeth… Could hear them talk about a computer game. Went to their bedroom and realised their socks was not on, their computer was turned on and they were simply ignoring me! So I shouted again for them to brush their teeth, put their socks on and get downstairs to put their shoes and coats on otherwise I would leave without them. They panicked and Jack said he didn’t know where his socks were. I searched for them under the bed, under the duvet. I knew I’d put them there but obviously he moved them and now did not remember where to. So I grabbed a new pair in his cupboard and ran downstairs to give them to him while he brushed his teeth. I brushed mine as the same time. Tom complained he couldn’t put his socks on properly so I helped him while Jack ran downstairs to put his shoes on. Me and Tom followed soon after. Went to the kitchen to feed the fish. Grabbed my keys, glasses and mobile phone and stuffed it in my handbag. Grabbed my coat and realised the kids were just chatting one shoe on, one shoe off, no coats, basically taking their time. I looked at the clock and finally burst ‘RIGHT…that’s it! You’re both grounded. No more computer playing in the morning or for the rest of the week for that matter’ They complained, Jack saying ‘You don’t love us anymore’. Yes I do but I will kick your butt if you don’t get a move on. Finally we’re out the door. Put them in the car, and drive off. Try to find a space to park my car near the school. Get Jack to Junior, chat quickly with K in the playground, then walk to Infant School and say goodbye to Tom. Ran back to my car, Drove off to work. Arrived 10 minutes later….

Now… the peace and quiet can start!

In my dreams. Phone kept ringing, people kept asking and when I tried to make myself a coffee, I realised the milk had gone off and I had lumps in my mug!

Surely it can only get better after that!!!!

Yesterday I went into town to have an eye test. And now I am wearing glasses for reading and computering !  I also did a little bit more christmas shopping and on my way back, I went to Sainsbury to do a weekly shopping so we wouldn't have to do it over the weekend. It's always a nightmare when you go food shopping at the weekend. Everyone seems to have the same idea as you and you end up queueing for ever to pay for your grocery.
So anyway, I filled up my trolley and went to the checkout.
There was this girl before me. She must have been a student looking by what she was buying. A vegetarian student with not much money .
I always love looking at what people buy. You get the scoomer family buying loadsa fizzy pop, crisps, chocolate and sausages in a tin. Their kids are usually unkept and dirty and they are all looking very unhealthyly fat and grubby.... and on top of that, they usually are very rude and say the 'F' word in between each words of each sentences.
Then you have the bachelors and batchelorettes. With their ready meal for one and bottles of wine and a baguette! They look at you funny when your kid plays up a little. They seem to have forgotten they were kids once too!
Anyway yesterday as I was waiting to put my food on the conveyor belt, I hear a voice behind me: 'Hello darling, how are you!'. Not recognising the voice, I dont bother turning. It is obviously not meant for me. But I hear it again 'Hello Darling!'. So I turned around and I see that granny woman with a shopping basket smiling at me. Never seen her in my life before. But she insists. 'How are you pet?'. So I nicely and politely reply 'I am fine thank you'. Then she starts talking again but this time to whoever wants to hear her. 'Aren't you all just lovely dear, girls nowadays are so beautiful. Lovely clothe and beautiful hair. They all are so pretty, all of you!'. So I smile and thank her again and start putting my stuff on the conveyor belt. And then I hear her say 'Of course in my days, we never had clothe like this. I never had any new clothe me, oh nooo. My mother always got me clothe from the charity shop. And they were never nice. I never looked nice when I was young. I had old rags on me'. Feeling sorry for herself, I smiled gently and turned back to my grocery. But she carried on 'Of course in my days we never had anything nice at all. I never slept in a bed when I was a young child. I never had a bed of my own me. I was sleeping on the old coach in the living room. We only had one living room. Not like these days where you have rooms for every activity of the family. No I never had a bed me. I was sleeping on a coach. And my old mother, bless her, she had an army to look after. Brave woman she was. She used to put this old coat on me at night so I wouldn't get cold. But these days kids have everything. For christmas I had an orange. But now they have everything. Toys and computers. My grandaughter had a car for her birthday. A car.... a Vauxhall it was. Yeah. Her dad bought it for her and she had a car for her birthday. It's amazing huh. Kids nowadays they have everything. I only had an orange for my christmas and I was grateful for it. Of course these days kids dont care and they have everything. Like my grandaughter who had a car for her birthday. Her dad bought it for her and she's got a car now. I like this shop. There's so much to buy in here. So much choice, so many thing to see and buy. You dont know where to look. I have been coming in this shop for 13 years. Yeah I love shopping me and I like this shop best.'
At that point I was engrossed in packing my stuff away and thankfully the old lady was now speaking to the poor girl who was behind her.
This poor old bag was just lonely I guess. Judging by her shopping basket where she had a small packet of Rich Tea Biscuits and a small bottle of fizzy water, she obviously came to the shop to chat to people.
And me, being busy and in hurry to get home so I could do my nails (self centered cow I am) before picking the kids from school, I left quickly and forgot about that old woman. Until this morning .... I thought I'd write about her! Then I'll go back to my little busy life and forget about her again.

I dont wanna grow old!
Mey
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Today I was at a meeting all morning for this new system the NHS is installing nationwide. It will take years for the whole thing to be into place but hopefully it will work better than what we have now… and what we have now is prehistorical! So it can’t be worse!
Anyway… I had a good giggle with my work colleague Carol during the meeting as we were joking about this and that. And we got a few hard angry looks from others who were seriously listening to what was going on… Asss lickers lol I felt like I was back at school at the back of the class joking and basically not listening to the teacher! It felt good!
Between the giggling, I was doodling! I am one of those people who doodle all the time when I am on the phone or vaguely listening to someone making a presentation about a boring subject. I’m the doodle lady when it comes to pen and pad during a meeting.
As I was doodling I wondered at one point why I kept doing the same doodle. This kinda star/flower shape which is so easy and so addictive to do. I took a picture of my doddles so you can admire my work!

After the meeting I googled to see what my doodles meant. So I google doodle…. Hahaha!

And this is what I found out about myself which is amazingly TRUE!!!
Since I cannot make up my mind whether I am doodling a flower or a star I looked at the two meanings.
Flower doodling means I am in touch with my feminine side. True. I love being a woman and if I was a man I would be pissed off to say the least. Sorry guys but having a thingy hanging between my legs is really not my idea of beauty. Having breasts (even though mine are small!!) and curves is more like it for me! I like make up and doing my nails. I am a lady (As would Little Britain say but I do not wear a moustache….How very dare you assume I have a moustache!).
Anyway the doodling signification reads: Some Flowers, with a starlike structure represents the sun/son. Whatever that means! Sun means Happy…doesn’t it? So I guess I am happy which is true in some ways. Son means my kids which I love to death.
Now if you read the doodling of stars and the ones that come closer to the description of my doodles, it reads: A pattern of intersecting vertical lines (mine are rounder but still…they are lines) - bars indicate a sense of imprisonment, feeling trapped or powerless (wrong… I have the power lol). So I feel trapped…TRUE and you all know it. But then again, my doodle is softer than vertical lines so is my prison a little bit comfortable?! It sure is and until I sleep well at night in that prison I will stay. When the thorns will come on my doodle, I will take the hint and do something about it!
I also doodled little circles which represent again a sun disk which consist of the eternal whole. Basically I am quite content with myself. I like myself. And why shouldn’t I. If I wait for anyone to like me, I’ll be waiting a long time. Hum… no… that’s a lie. I have a lot of people who like me…and even love me. But some don’t. Well you can’t be liked everywhere. Those who don’t like me don’t really affect me. If you don’t like me, you are basically insignificant in my life. … Do I look bothered!!! If I like you and you don’t like me then I will be upset…but only for a short while. I doodle lots of circles and it means I am happy with my own self. So I get over the ones who don’t like me pretty quickly.

Now I also doodled random shapes and lines. And you will notice that they are less than light weight. I have doodled thick heavy lines…. Which means: strength and energy. I know I am strong…. I am not hesitant in whatever I want to do…or say. If I wanna say something, I say it. Whether you like it or not, it’s not really my problem!
They say that when you doodle flowers, you are in touch with nature… I am not sure about that but I’ll accept it. I love the big space and would rather live in a chalet in a snowy mountain somewhere rather than in town…but then again, I like towns cause towns have got pubs hehehe! I love socialising but I also love to have my peace and my space…in a middle of a blooming field.. why not!
I doodled the dragonfly cause I love dragonfly. Didn’t find a meaning for it! I like it though. Might have it tattooed on my wrist!
Now I also read that if you doodle a pink Triangle it represents Gay Pride. So if you are gay that is fine. But if you’re not, I would ask myself a few questions!

That’s it for today!

Mey
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I love watching a good old movie. I dont mean a black and white movie cause I am very narrow minded when it comes to movies and if it's not in colour, it aint worth watching! It means it was made WEEEELL before my time and I have this real numbness when I see an old movie with over acting bacd acting and cinema kisses that never stop.
What I like the most about movies that become timeless (I am talking about moivies made in 70s and over) is the phrases that are heard over and over again and you never get bored with them.

The most famous would be: Frankly me Dear, I dont give a Damn and yes...I know this film was made in the 30s but Gone with the Wind is a total classic and it is in colour! That said I have watched it once and missed about 15 minutes of the end. Never felt the need to watch it again.
No one of my favourite would be 'Adriaaaaan'. Ah Sylvester Stalone and his gooey eyes crying for his wife after the boxing match he's just lost. Whether it is Rocky, Rocky I, II, II or IV all of them are just Brilliant! Classic with crappy acting but fantastic 80s music and show off attitude.  Cheesy?  Oh yes please!!
 And in the same year, Spycho Robert de Niro in Taxi Driver is looking at himself in the miror and is saying 'Are you talking to me'. LOL How many times have I said that phrase when I am pretending to be hard and about to throw a right hook....usually it's with D and I never hit him. He is bigger than me!
The very famous Star Wars has its own phrases...more than one even. 'May the force be with you' or 'I am your father' or even 'Ready are you'.... Yoda and is funny quotes. Whoever wrote these must have had a real laugh! I use of these quote yearly. Usually on the 4th of May. And I never get tired of it. 'May the 4th be with you'!!
There are film I like to watch over and over again and never get tired of them. The Karate Kid seuquels are one of them. Althought the 1 and 2 are by far better than the 3rd and 4th. And of course you get the 'Wax on, wax off' quote which springs to mind! I was in love with Ralph Macchio when I was 14. I thought he was gorgeous. Then I realise he was quite older than me and still looked like a teenager. That killed it for me! Has that guy ever done anymore film? Might have to google his name one day!
Without knowing all the films from where all the quites come from this is a few that come to mind: 'ET phone Home'... yeah well ok. that's from ET. 'Come on, make my day'...dont know where's that from. ' Hasta la vista baby' or 'I'll be back' Ahhh if only Arnie kept to movies. Mind you he wasn't even good at that!. I love Christopher Lambert in 'Highlander' and 'There can only be one!' What dont they make films like this no more... such a shame!!
'Oh Captain, my Captain' standing on a desk looking down at Robbin Williams leaving the class for good.  Brings a tear to my eye again (Dead Poets Society)
'No one puts baby in the corner' YEAH... you said it well Patrick Swayze. So glad I am going to see the West End 'Dirty Dancing' show in London soon!!
For the most recent quotes we have the unforgettable: 'You are a TOOOOOOY' and 'To Infinity and beyond' (Toy Story), or 'Show me the Moneeeeeeeey' (Jerry Maguire), 'Life's like a box of chocolate, you never know what you gonna get' by the Magnificant Tom Hanks in Forrest Gump; but also 'I'm the king of the world' or 'I see dead people' and the forvever never dying and always as sexy as ever 'My name's Bond.... James bond' (Thank God for the new Blond guy.... he is yummy!)
So anyway.. that was just a little wink to all the great films I like. There are more films of course but I am tired of typing now...

Mey
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[Finally managed to log in... BLOODY ANTIVIRUS WAS THE PROBLEM!!!!]

I had a thought today.

Yeah…sometimes it happens! I am thinking about stuff and I feel like sharing it!

Anyway, I was thinking about something I read in Heat Magazine yesterday. Heat Magazine being my weekly dose of showbiz gossip I crave every Monday! Britney Spears was on the cover about her divorce with Kevin Fedsomething. I grabbed a copy of Heat Magazine and went straight home eager to know about why she is dumping him. Apart from the obvious fact that he is a complete looser! If you don’t know already, Kev has been lying to Brit once again and he is so stupid, he thought he could get away with it. That’s kinda laughable! I thought it was amazing that Heat had a picture of exMr Spears of the moment when he received the txt message on his mobile phone announcing his divorce…. How did they know that !!! lol

Anyway, the thought I had was about an article in Heat where Chris Moyles (BBC Radio 1 DJ) said about a TV presenter (can’t remember her name now) that she was fat. There was a picture of the woman and she look everything but fat. A good size 12 I’d say. And when you look at Chris Moyles, a generous size 18, you’re thinking… what had he been smoking that day!??
I saw Chris Moyles’ girlfriend on a magazine once and she has got quite a nice figure. God only knows why she is with Moyles. I mean the guy is funny but you have to want a bit of a craving for fat lardy man to go out with him!
I am thinking Moyles needs to compensate for his large figure and therefore needs to have a skinnier partner and she agreed maybe because as well as being fat, he might be well loaded …and I ain’t talking about what’s in his pants…cause I heard that large guys have a small packet!!. I was talking about his bank account!

So here’s my thought (sorry it’s taking so long to come to the point!).
It is quite common to have a man fancying a woman on a larger size. You can probably say that more men would rather have a bigger lady on their arms, than a skinny one. Men would rather go out with Kelly Brook (curvy) than Victoria Beckham (sack of bones). And I don’t think it is necessary because they cannot pull a skinny lady… they genuinely like curvier women! It is a fact!
But my thought was…. How many women prefer to have a fatter bloke on their arm rather than a Greek God alike! How many women would happily share their fried chicken with a big hairy man (hairy wasn’t necessary but it just came out!) or share an apple with muscle tanned slick man? Let’s face it. If you put Chris Moyle in one corner and David Beckham in the other corner, how many ladies do you think would go for Chris? ONE….his girlfriend! OK…maybe TWO…his mum too!

So does this mean women are more vain than men? Do they care more about what they are dragging around their arms or more about what’s inside?
We have to admit that women in the majority want to look good… Men too but they fail a lot of the time (ahhaha).
Vanity is a sin! So are all women sinners?

Probably but men would not have it any other way!

That’s when you realise that Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. We are two completely different species and there is so much more men and women have that are complete opposite. Talking about it now would be taking far too much of my time. But I might elaborate a bit more some day.

Mey
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